Xiang
Congrats Sgt Yewyi for his ORD, how i wish i was in his position. As for the rest, u guys are now Sgts or officers-to-be, but i still a f*cking coporal! Life sucks so far for me. I wan to cry, i wan to die (extract from our bmt song which realli suits me lol)...
Posted to recce to suffer all the shit. Appointed as a Armskote Spec, need to account for all the weapons and shit.. how lucky... Walking 60km+ in FBO... 4d3n no proper sleep... had useless teammates which ends me up being the camel carrying all the heaviest load.. F*CK !!!!
Killed an unagi and frog last friday, live one... with all the blood, mucus and even cum spilling out.. damn gross.. wads worse i gotta cook and eat em!! damn damn damn.. so not enjoying my life right now..
Even outside camp, things have not been going well for me... I lost my 11B, my SAF riding permit, my ashworth wallet!! those stupid cards alone could easily sum up a huge fraction of my coporal pay.. Ended my 3 year relationship with her on the phone.. while i was juz on my way back to camp from outfield.. shagged, tired, cried.. but i could not sleep.. why is it like this...
Think im in a state of near depression now, no drive to excel, no will to push.. juz being a camel for the team.. This coming week is my final week of my phase 1 training, will be going outfield for 4d3n again... Training shedule includes dog evasion, prisoner-of-war treatment, jungle combat survival training... how the fuck am i supposed to go thru that, no food given, had to run away from enemy and bitches, POW abuse lasting 12 hours... f*ck... Is the jungle hat worth the trouble and shit i had to endure?? More so i had dropped the idea of any best trainee.. no recognition of at least a silver bayonet..
haix... my army life.. no my life is screwed..my lower spine hurts from the 940A set i carry along with my full pack.. thots of downgrading myself keep ringing in my head, no energy to continue this f*ck shit le.. im triple killed...

